A Mixed day

Well today is a sad day but at the same time it is also a very happy day. Today nine months ago I gave birth to my son and that makes it sad because hes no longer with me. However its a happy day because I realize if it were for him I wouldn't have two wonderful friends that have a beautiful little girl. I got to spend October 7th with my two friends Adam and Brandi. I got to see how their little 3 month old Adalynn was doing and she is just the sweetest cutest little thing in the world. I went over to their house for dinner and just to see them. It was a wonderful thing seeing how a year ago on October 7th I met them for the first time at the Olive Garden. We've been good friends ever since and I am very grateful for that. So happy one year anniversary Adam and Brandi and Happy 9 month birthday Baby. I love you!

Just an Update

Well it's been 6 months 2 weeks and 4 days since my dear sweet little boy left me and I must say it is a lot easier now to realize that he's in a better place. I'm doing really good with everything.

I decided to take a semester off of college in order to try and get a job and get my life in track however thats not working as well as i hoped. Finding a job in this bad economy is like finding a needle in a hay stack. However i keep babysitting for some friends and thats going really good.

I also decided that it is time for me to move on in my life and move out of where I'm living at. So I found a 3 bedroom apartment and me and my best friend are moving into on the 4th. I'm so excited I already started packing. So from now on I'll be living in the Spokane Valley.

Thats about all that is going on. So until the 4th, then I'll take pictures of my new place.

My New Tattoo

Okay so ever since Seth died I have wanted a Tattoo with his name in it. Well two days ago i called a tattoo shop just to see if they were busy. They weren't so i went in and looked at all the designs. I found the perfect one and wanted it right away. So I got it. I started crying cuz it hurt so bad but it was well worth it. Below are pictures of my tattoo.

The above picture is half way through before I started to bruse.Below is the finished tattoo with brusing all around the outside and all in it.

My new Highlights

Okay so it's been a while since i last blogged!! Lately I've been busy with school but it's finally over! I passed everything but accounting. A couple days ago I went and got my hair done professionally. Below are some pictures of how it looks now.

It's My Birthday!!

Wow I finally hit 19!!! I woke up this morning and was very happy. I got to open my presents right when i woke up! Willie spent 3 hours yesterday looking for the perfect gift for me. And finally he went to Wally World and found the perfect tank top that I woke up to this morning!! And tonight I get to go out to the track hopefully and spend my night racing on opening day!! Today is the best day! And tomorrow is Brandi's baby shower for sweet little Adalynn!!! Can't wait. This weekend is full of fun!!

My Hair Cut

This is my new hair cut. My bangs are too short and constantly get in my eyes so i have to pin them back everyday until they grow out.

Just Can't Leave My Hair Alone

I have come to the conclusion that i love change a little too much. It seems almost every month now i have had a different hair color. I loved how it was when i had my roots brown and the rest was blonde. On the left is last week and the on right now. Big difference. I love the way it looks though. Today I am leaving for Seattle and wont be back until Sunday.

My hair

Okay so this week has been very stressful. I found out that I am failing one class but my grade will go up before finals. Yesterday I decided to actually do my hair and put on some make-up and try to look cute. The picure you see is the end result. I like how it all turned out. I threw my hair up half way and then straightened the rest of it that way hanging down. I got lots of commilments because nobody ever sees me like that.

Bored!!!!

Today I feel very sad and yet it is a somewhat good day. I am sad because again it's the 10th of the month and I couldn't help but think of Seth. I started crying last night because I missed him but other then that it was a good night. Earlier this week I decided to take some pictures with my phone and they turned out really good. I was surprised. I honestly didn't think my hair was that blonde but I guess in the sunlight it's brighter. Here are some of my beautiful pictures.

2 Months to Go

Wow this year is just flying by. It's already March. I only have 2 months till My Birthday. I am so excited. My Birthday this year will be awesome. I have new friends that i can share it with. Hopefully the time will fly by even fast over then next two months that way it will be here tomorrow. After my birthday I hope the time slows down that way i can sit back and enjoy spring and summer without having to worry about school and everything else that has happened and that is happening. Oh well one can only wish.

This is what I came home from school to last year. Willie had decorated the whole front yard with the long rolls of thin paper and silly string and balloons. As soon as i stepped out of the car when we got home he covered me in silly string. It was a very good way to spend my birthday. Cleaning the front yard. I can't wait to see what he has in store of my birthday this year.

Yummy!!! Yummy!!!

I decided to make cupcakes last night. They turned out pretty good but this morning they all were stuck to each other. I decided to frost them when i got home from school. I used funfetti cake mix (my favorite) and vanilla frosting (also a favorite).


I remembered that tomorrow is Brandi's Birthday so i decided to make one of the cupcakes with pink frosting just for her.

Happy Birthday Brandi!!!

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day!!!!

Today is Valentine's day and I have had a wonderful day so far. I spent the whole day at home watching movies with Willie and for dinner we made spagetti together. Normally I am the one cooking dinner so it was a wonderful change.

A couple days ago was my son Seth's first birthday. He would be a month old. So this would have been his first Valentine's day...I love him more than any man in this world. Happy Valentine's Day Seth.

Here are some things that Willie got me for Valentine's Day.

Happy Birthday!!

Dear Baby Seth,
It has been one very long month since you left me and all the people who love you so much. I still miss you so much and I know you are missing your mommy. I know that you are in a better place now and that someone is taking very good care of you. Today if you would not have pasted away would be your one month birthday. So I decided to celebrate your birthday by being happy that i had you for that very short amount of time.

In the past month I have had many issues in trying to deal with you not being here. The first week was horrible but I had my friends and family to help. On exactly a week after I had you, I hung out with Brandi, she is pregnant with a little girl who i am sure you would have been best friends with. Anyways Brandi made that day so special because she gave me the video of when you were 20 weeks along and that's when we found out you were a boy.

That video is so special to me because in it you looked directly at the ultrasound thing as if to say "hi, i love you." I watch it when I get really sad and it makes me so happy. I love you so much and I want you to know everyone still loves you so much. I am very proud of you for holding on as long as you did.

Happy One Month Birthday Son!!!

All my love
Your Mommy
Brianna

New Hair Color

I finally decided to go with a new color on my hair. This time instead of just dying it a light blonde that will fade out in a couple of weeks. I went with a bleach blonde that is very bright and very gorgeous.

What do you think?

My new Blog

I just started this blog. Now you can see what i am up to from time to time. (here you go brandi.this will give you something else to do druing your busy days)